Last night I went to Serina again. I told her the lessons I've learnt from my meditation retreat and solo ski trip, and those from the people I met. She asked if I found I had become more positive and I agreed. But I doubted if my positivity could last. I also told her it's good that I came to admit my own shortcomings and needs. After some further talks and treatments, Serina said I was already ok and that could be my last session. I thanked her. I know I sounded very flat but that's only because I know I could never articulate how I feel about this journey. 

My dear friends, if you are also facing problems with your emotions or feeling chronically lost or unhappy, do reach out for help. It works. At least in my case it does.