Trust

This feeling of insecurity and restlessness has never left me. It is in my blood. Perhaps it's because I do not really want to get rid of it. Well... actually I do. I wish one day I would feel totally safe and just let go. Maybe it would happen when I meet someone who is totally trustworthy. But deep down I know no one is 100-percent trustworthy, not even me to myself. Not even my parents to me. No.  My friend said, "look, you are like my 9-year-old daughter. She needs me to keep telling her I love her everyday before she could be certain about it." I thought to myself, even someone tells me everyday that he/she loves me, I may not believe in that. So maybe the answer lies with myself. Perhaps inner peace will come when I eventually know how to be trusting and how to take things easily. As for now, I am still learning.